I want to share a few life updates with you:
- Believe it or not, I have been living in Ohio for a full year now!
- I’ve been at my current job for a year as well (yay paid vacation time!).
- And I finished the first year of the School of Kingdom Writers.
- I also turned 33 which is a fun number.
So much has happened in the past year. A lot of learning, growing, struggling.
You know, all those things you endure when you move across the country and start a new chapter in your life. My chapter didn’t exactly go as planned but when do plans actually happen as we expect?
What’s that saying…”make your plans and God will laugh at them”? Or “if you want to see God laugh, make your own plans”?
No, wait, I got it!
Proverbs 16:9 The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.
This verse doesn’t involve God laughing but if you’re like me, I’m pretty sure plenty of my steps have actually been considered stumbles and God has chuckled. Not at my expense, of course, but because He knows I’m laughing at myself as well.
Believe it or not, I’m an idiot and I make mistakes. I have panic attacks and overthink things and question a lot of what’s told to me. Even things God has told me this past year.
But isn’t that the way of life and growth?
The past few weeks I’ve found myself asking God a few questions that I thought I knew the answers to already. Questions I don’t want to ask out loud. Questions I still don’t understand but I’m laying them before Him in hopes of answers.
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, asking the tough questions is the best way to learn and grow.
And I believe this is a growing season. If I’ve learned anything this past year, God has ways of bringing us to places where we have nothing else but to finally ask the questions burning our insides up.
A form of growing pains, I suppose.
In Other News
Besides sitting in a space of questioning God, I’ve also grown in the prepper world.
Never before did I imagine sharing what I’ve learned in the past decade with others. There seems to be two sides to the prepper world: stay out of the radar or share with everyone.
With prepping as my niche, I’ve had to fall into the second camp and establish myself there.
And it seems now is the right time to do that. With the world and America as they are currently, it would seem prepping doesn’t sound too far-fetched or crazy.
I’ve watched plenty of people start their own gardens and relearn cooking from scratch because they had time during lockdowns.
I’ve seen people finally open their eyes and begin thinking for themselves.
Things are changing and believe me, I’m here for it!
Speaking of change, I’ve updated my website photos! But I want to share the difference a year has made.
Just look at those gray hairs! Perhaps I have grown in some wisdom this past year.
At least, I’d like to think I have despite the ever-growing amount of questions in my head and journal.
Should We Be Concerned…
Ha! No, my friends.
Asking questions and reviewing what I’ve learned so far is a step in the right direction, despite what some people will tell you. I’m seeking answers instead of bottling up my doubts and fears in a jar that will burst later.
A few months ago when the questions began, I asked God why He brought me all the way up here for all this stuff the past year to happen.
His answer: “How else was I getting you to Ohio?”
Goodness, He makes me laugh.
In all seriousness though, I’m thankful He did. Despite the struggle and–for lack of a better word–crap that has happened, I’m thankful for this past season of growth.
He’s brought me to a place where I can’t turn away any more. I have to dig deep and seek answers from the only One who can give them to me.
So please don’t worry!
I believe better days are ahead.
And I’ll keep posting regularly, of course. Prepping is a part of my calling. It’s literally a part of my life as I am living in this world.
So that’s my update! Yes, I left out some things but believe me, this blog isn’t meant for those type of long stories. But it’s all good, friends!
Next week we’ll jump back into the regularly scheduled program with Fire Safety. Be sure to subscribe so you don’t miss it!
Until next time, Happy Prepping!